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Fear is a Liar


Lately the nudge to write has grown but I have fought it because I'm not sure what to write. There are things rattling around internally I just don't know which ones to write about. This blog is an outlet for me in so many ways yet I let fear grip me and I stay silent. Fear is a real enemy. Fear can keep us from living, really living. 

A situation came up recently where someone I care about said something that hurt. I know it wasn't meant to hurt, but it hurt anyway. Fear kept me silent. Fear kept me from telling this person that their words hurt. Fear brought anxiety. Fear threatened to hurt a strong relationship. I would love to say I eventually confronted this person and told them my heart, but fear won and I have yet to speak the words.

Fear has kept me from fighting the insurance company so that I can get the decompression surgery I need. I am afraid of another surgery. Ach, there it is, the truth. I'd rather live in pain then go through another decompression. Fear is winning.

Fear keeps me from living free in Christ. I am afraid of what others will say or think. Fear has indeed kept me in bondage for far too long.  Fear wants me to delete the words, start over, write something else. But if I do that fear will win once again. When will I stand up to fear? Speak truth to it? The Bible is full of weapons to combat fear. Yet I leave the weapons untouched. 

As long as I refuse to fight, fear will continue to win in so many areas of my life. I am tired of living behind the mask of fear. Perhaps today will be the beginning of a war on fear, perhaps today I will let the truth of God's word penetrate deep in my heart. May today be the day fear begins losing!


"Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest."

Joshua 1:9


"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment." 

I John 4:18


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  1. SharonJuly 15, 2021 at 2:37 PM

    Just keep praying for the Lord to give you strength, Love you my friend.

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  2. UnknownJuly 16, 2021 at 11:55 AM

    Dear Dawn, I pray everyday for you and that God will guide you in the decision on the surgery. Love dad

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