So, I have hesitated writing because this week has
been a real test of faith. It is a test that does not seem to be over nor have
I received the coveted A+. Yesterday it seemed the Lord reminded me the purpose
of my blog and I felt the need to write even though my current test of faith is
ongoing.
Lately, I (we) have been in a holding pattern in almost all
aspects of day to day life. The ministry, physically in our home, financially, emotionally,
and I could go on. A holding pattern is simply defined as: “The flight path maintained by an aircraft awaiting permission to land.”
Have you ever felt that way in life? You are flying along and just when you
think you may be achieving your goals or finding the Lord’s will you are put in
a holding position. Think about the above definition and how it could relate to
your own life, with the exception of awaiting permission to take off instead of land.
This week has been testy for me, I am not sure I will go
through a list of things I am dealing with because I have NO desire to
complain, it has just been one of those weeks, ya know? Some days I feel the
Lord is going to thrust us out in the ministry, that we are right on the verge
of something (what I have NO idea, but something) and then I am called in to a holding pattern. Isn’t it so hard to
wait? Waiting on the Lord has always been a difficult challenge for me
personally and yet we as Christians are often called to wait.
Psalm 62:5
“My soul, wait
thou only upon God; for my expectation is from him.”
It is when my expectation is OFF him that I find it the hardest to
wait. Truly if we keep our EVERYTHING in Him, the holding pattern will not seem so long. I do not know what the Lord
is doing in my life and the life of my family, but I do know that I can trust
him with my heart, life and soul.
Isaiah 40:31
“But they that
wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings
as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk; and not
faint.”
Thanks for tagging along in my journey of faith.
Will be praying for you and your family Dawn. I have been a stay at home mom for almost 10 years now and I can understand a little of what your going through. It's not always easy, but I know it's Gods will and I would not have it any other way. Financially, it can be tough, but God has always supplied every need. Keep on with what God has planned for you, and he promised that he will never leave you or forsake you. God is never caught unaware of our circumstance's and has a answer for our every need, but its always in his own time,not ours. Keep that beautiful smile on your face and give God all the glory, even when it does not seem like the thing or time to do it.
ReplyDeleteGreat post..love you girly!!! Two verses that I have seen this week in Psalms that are somewhat identical are like what you wrote about. Psalm 40:1, "I waited patiently for the Lord and he inclined unto me and heard my cry." and none other than same chapter you were in Psalm 62:1, "Truly my soul waiteth upon God from him cometh my salvation." We are to patiently wait for God not fretting,,,yet like that is easy to do, huh?and the verse goes on to say that God is our rock and defence and we won't be moved. This so spoke to me this week..So we patiently not fretting wait the storm out whether it be a physical, financial, spiritual, or emotional storm.
ReplyDeleteLove ya!