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Blog Reboot

 Somehow it has been two years since I put my thoughts on this blog. Quite a few things have changed in the last couple of years, but that is true for all of us isn't it? 2020 has been one for the books. If you haven't personally experienced Covid-19 I am sure you know of someone who has. And even if you've avoided the actual virus, Covid has still altered your year and perhaps even your life. We too have experienced the effects of the virus both from a sickness view and daily life view (our year has been altered too). But I'm not writing today because of Covid-19. I'm writing because the nudge to write has been stirring in my heart for months. The nudge is no longer a nudge, it is more like a shove.

When I began this blog it was to chronical how the Lord would take care of me and my little family when I walked away from public work. The Lord has absolutely done that. I now have a boy in college, one in high school and a girl in 5th grade. They are all well fed and well clothed. God has been good. 

The last two years however have been a physical battle for me like I never dreamed I'd experience. That physical battle is part of what brings me to write today. Many, many people are in the middle of or are facing a physical battle. And so many are battling without hope. My desire is to write about the practical aspects as well as bring hope to others facing physical battles.

For those who don't know me or my story personally, I was diagnosed with Chiari Malformation in 2018 and just this year diagnosed with Craniocervical Instability. These conditions are rare, Chiari being more well known then Craniocervical instability or CCI. Chiari symptoms statistically show up in around .06 % of the population while CCI may be present in about 1% of the population. 

Just like most people with chronic illness I don't guess I look sick, only those who know me well can tell when I am having a bad day. This morning I was able to take a 20 minute walk and it felt great emotionally, physically not so much. But I know I have to keep moving, because if I stop I may never have the strength to start again. 

So, here we go, not a new journey per se but just a different bend in the road. Thanks for reading!
 
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