Walking in the Shadows

Lately the nudge to write has grown but I have fought it because I'm not sure what to write. There are things rattling around internally I just don't know which ones to write about. This blog is an outlet for me in so many ways yet I let fear grip me and I stay silent. Fear is a real enemy. Fear can keep us from living, really living.  A situation came up recently where someone I care about said something that hurt. I know it wasn't meant to hurt, but it hurt anyway. Fear kept me silent. Fear kept me from telling this person that their words hurt. Fear brought anxiety. Fear threatened to hurt a strong relationship. I would love to say I eventually confronted this person and told them my heart, but fear won and I have yet to speak the words. Fear has kept me from fighting the insurance company so that I can get the decompression surgery I need. I am afraid of another surgery. Ach, there it is, the truth. I'd rather live in pain then go through another decompression. Fear...

  So, I have hesitated writing because this week has been a real test of faith. It is a test that does not seem to be over nor have I received the coveted A+. Yesterday it seemed the Lord reminded me the purpose of my blog and I felt the need to write even though my current test of faith is ongoing. Lately, I (we) have been in a holding pattern in almost all aspects of day to day life. The ministry, physically in our home, financially, emotionally, and I could go on. A holding pattern is simply defined as: “The flight path maintained by an aircraft awaiting permission to land.” Have you ever felt that way in life? You are flying along and just when you think you may be achieving your goals or finding the Lord’s will you are put in a holding position. Think about the above definition and how it could relate to your own life, with the exception of awaiting permission to take off instead of land. This week has been testy for me, I am not sure I will go through a list of ...

This thought has been on my heart all week, faith without fear. How many times have you stepped out on faith and noticed the trembling inside as you shook with fear? Isn’t it a scary thing to obey the Lord and take that step of faith? Not knowing where God is sending you, how He is going to provide for you, if you are going to get that job offer, if He is going to heal you, if your loved one is going to accept Christ, what to do next… Couldn’t you just tremble with fear NOT knowing??                 Hebrews 11:23 “By faith Moses, when he was born, was hid three months of his parents, because they saw he was a proper child; and they were not afraid of the king’s commandment.” I was reading Hebrews this week and when I read this verse, a light seemed to come on. I had never thought about faith that way, faith without the fear. As you know, this blog is all about my journey in faith but I wo...